I Put A Lot Of Energy Into You
I put a lot of energy into you
I spent so much energy trying to get you to like me
To be nice to me
To be a real friend.
Why couldn’t you just tell me you hated me?
Even if it wasn’t true and you actually wanted me around…
Why wouldn’t you discard me when you knew you couldn’t treat me like a good friend?
I spent so much time enduring your hurtful words
All because I thought if I stuck around, you wouldn’t be so mean to me
I hoped one day you would be nicer to me
I even hoped someday we would be something more.
Now, that’s something I’ve never told anyone.
I cared about you so, so much
So, I kept coming back
Even when you pissed me off so damn much…
I came back
Because I believed you would eventually stop hurting me.
And you never did.
You told me to stop overreacting when something bad happened to me
Told me to stop victimizing myself
That’s when I realized you would never…ever…treat me like a friend.
So, I did what you should have done
I blocked your ass and never looked back.
